I don’t even want to THINK about how long it has been since I have written in my on-line journal…
i started this page hoping to put show updates and info…decorating tips, new work of my own…etc…you get it…all in one place. as a path through my explorations and maybe to help me with the book i have been trying (too hard) to write.
the problem…if it’s a problem, really, with life is…things keep popping up! it’s almost ridiculous how often things have been popping up in my life over the last year…i feel like a gypsy…or a balloon…floating around looking for a place to land for a bit. a soft place that won’t “pop!” me.
i lost a good friend ( not to death but to circumstance) when i moved back to york a few months ago…someone dear to me and someone that inspired me to paint and relax and play backgammon when life got tough. i miss him…it’s funny how you may not know someone for long but they have a way of leaving a big hole when they are gone…or maybe i’m just blaming my loss for the reason my paiting has been molasses lately.
i’m off, today, as have been everday since i moved back to my hometown…to re-find my inspiration…i don’t know what it is going to be…i have stumbled upon a few things that i think may lead me to the right place…some people have touched my life…and some large animals ( yeah! horses right next door to me!)…but the restaurant world still has me a bit zapped.
new job, new friends, new heat coming from somewhere, a new house to move into (eventhough i’ll miss my best friend)…new! new! new!
what’s wrong with old? progress and change…things i have a love/hate relationship with…but am certainly a pro at by now.
thinking about painting…i find my thoughts trailing off to the idea that ” you can’t count on anybody but yourself”. I don’t want this to be true…but it certainly seems to be something to take into consideration.
but at the same time, i am contradiction. i want to be self-sufficient…blah blah blah…but then i think “whats wrong with having someone to depend on and who depends on you” a happy coexistence..to bodies sharing a life…making a life where they can remain individuals but still need eachother.
this is what is going trough my head this moring while i munch my granola and yogurt…the birds are singind and it is a beautiful autumn day, once again.
i wish for a field to paint in…tall grass to hide in and watch the clouds go by…ants and beeltes to play with and a big plaid thermos of tea.
instead i’m off to look at womens scarred up breasts and take pictures of rhinoplasty ‘victims’. (don’t get me wrong…i LOVE my new job already…love learning ad love the people there soooo much…but …hmmm…look for more surgical ref.’s in paintigs to come…maybe a show with people who have animal parts sewn on their faces…or floral patterened scar tissue..)
xoxo
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SOOOOOO!
I am going a million miles a second…my brain is spiiiiiiining!
I need to do something.
I need to fight…fight to make something happen.
for me.
for the community.
i am sooo tired of being the nice person that is taken advantage of…and i feel like i found some realy great contacts and friends and acquaintancs here in York.
I swore I would never move back but truth be told, i like it here. my friends and loved one are here. my family.
And so very, very much talent. Between music, art, theater, dance, cooking, gardening, decorating…the people and the places to learn these things and the places to supply you with what you need to do these things.
okay there is no dic blick…no thats one thing i regret.
I’m on my soap-box here…or starting to get up on it…here’s the deal…
here are some links…lets all band together…start having art/cooking/brainstorming/music listening nights!
let’s make something happen here.
http://www.designspongeonline.com/
http://www.modeconomy.com/
http://www.corduroymag.com/
http://www.supernaturale.com/
http://indiefixx.com/the-indie-fixx-shop-has-closed-its-doors-but-indie-fixx-the-blog-is-still-here/
http://www.craftzine.com/
http://www.getcrafty.com/
lets start a path…a blog, an on-line magazine…an on-line shop…a magazine, a catalog…..a storefront! lets get into every pubication possible…lets make friends and make clients and meet people from other places we can collaberate. lets do what we are supposed to do!!
i want to make something happen…and i have to be honest i’d like to get my work out thee…and the work of other people who need to be noticed because thy have something different to offer. I want us to be appreciated and show everyone what we’ve got…have a ton of fun and hopefully make a living a long the way!
I have the brains, some contacts, the excitement, the time, the energy…the passion…but not the money…(and i obviously don’t write well…hehe…so we need someone who does)
what do you have?
I challenge you, Yorkers…what can we do!?!
here are my other sites…
http://partnerincrimeart.blogspot.com/
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So…I woke up this morning and was looking around jengray.com because I haven’t for an embarrasingly long time and I just love this bog…and I saw a bit about this SQUAM Artists Workshops!
So…I aksed my family if they would ever think about all getting together and getting me one Birthday present ( the September classes are one week before my 33rd bee-day) and lo and behold…within a matter of hours I was o the phone with Elizabeth MacCrellish ( the Director of Squam Art Workshops) !! She is so lovely…she was driving around in the snow of New Hampshire,toting her three dogs with her, stopping at the bank and chatting to me the whole way…and I could just feel this great energy coming thru the phone…like a little ray of sunshine!
I just couldn’t help smile…
if anyone wants ay more info about this fab weekend…
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Upon losing my last venture at Progressive Galeries VERY suddenly, and after monts of work and looking forward to curating a big gallery in Lancaster, PA…I am off on a new adventure…a small adventure! But…a good start, i think!
I’ve always dreamt of having my very own market stand here in York, PA…but always gave it up for bigger things ( ArtFX gallery, BEEstung Studio…store artists at Whole Foods Market in Baltimore…Merchandising Manager at Borders book…all left me in the dust of my own or someone elses decision…)…anyway…it’s been 11 ( count them..11 years) since I graduated from Art School in Baltimore…and I think I finally learned a much needed lesson. DIY! I love all of the experiences that I had, and love all of the people who I met throgh those experiences…many of whom I still keep very close touch with…but as Anais Nin said..”There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. “
So I am ready to blossom…and Thank you to everyone who helped along my journey.
The new BEEstung at Market blog will be here…
beestungatmarket.wordpress.com
“Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death. “…it is a very “Nin Day”…and I’m off to sew dog toys mad of old argyle socks so when I finally get that call about the prices of the booths I have chosen..and I pick on..I can OPEN!!!
xox
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the gallery opens this friday…walls done or not…i have not been painting or writing or anything creative…feelig all muddy inside…thats all i got for now.
i am wishing for spring, wanting for flowers and hoping everything works out.
too much floating right now.
xoxo
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hiking when i can…but mostly sanding, spackling, priming, painting…renovating a bathroom, moving my studio (again!)…making signs, designing windows..and getting used to having to business partners who …well…we all need better communication skills but i love them!
so progressive galleries, my baby, opens its doors for a soft-opening Frbruary 6th, 2009!
And then maybe Ill get back to having some time to answer all of my emails, talk to my friends ( if i haven’t pushed them all away because of this anti-communication thing ive let myself fall into because of my busy-ness!
So…I guess I’m on sabbatical for another few weeks…but then it’s all on! I get to paint again, ive again, have a regular schedule and get paid! woo! that means getting a small apartment somewhere that I can cal home…my own place again. Not that I don’t like living here it’s a beautiful house…but a 32 year old woman should not have to move back in with her father…no matter how well they get along 9 before she moves in) and i’d love to be moving in with someone else..but it just isn’t time yet…i want it…but it’ not time yet…i look forward to the day it does happen. But for now I can at least have a “my place” to go to in a month or two…where I can do the dishes and the laundry the way I want to…and be in control of my home-time.
Been burning the candle again…going to go to bed…more gallery info to come and hopefully more art ( mine and inspirational) when I get my new studio set up !
xo
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this blog will be temporarily on hold til i get a new digital camera..or can borrow someone elses….its almost photo-walk time!yay!xo
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ok….i have no clue how to use this but i need a real art website…at least until i can pay to have a real one….i can’t figure out how to add friends or post correctly…i’m so used to blogger from my highschool days…but this is so much more fun…just a little less idiot-friendly 
any help? xo
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well i’m going to try this again…among good company!
